Hot Not

I know I should be snatching photos of our Caramoan trip last week from my friends' albums on Facebook. I know I should be enjoying all the nice shots with them and of course a bit of the true beauty of the Philippines as we have experience in Bicol's very own, Caramoan Islands.

But I just can't.

I fucking CAN NOT.

Regret really comes at the end.

I regret not working hard enough on my diet and my exercises. There really were a lot of excuses being my working hours too long and that I have to go to classes during my days off from work. I literally do not have a holiday. All that stress because of finances and shit and that secret thingie I posted about the other week. Any free time I get, I have to deliberately and regrettably deduct from my supposed to be earning hours and days.

I do not wish to upload any of my horrenfuckingdous body.

My friend did and I immediately removed the tag. JFC. My tummy looked fucking ugly there and everyone just had to see it. Great. I'm not blaming nor am I angry at her. No. I love her for uploading all the beautiful shots of Caramoan but I just can't fucking digest seeing how disgusting I look. Kill me now. Please.

Except this. This is a sky shot and it freaking hid my disgusting tummy. Thank you, Nadine, for this mapanlinlang shot. :)
Photo by Nadine Camunay

And so, I fucking swear. The next time you see me at the beach, you guys be drooling over my model body. And I so fucking swear I won't be doing that by freaking starving myself. Nosiree. Never would I deny myself good food and good ice cream.

Caramoan is soooo beautiful. I don't want to taint a blog post because of my body, okay? That post will be done in a day or so. I have a lot to post but as I have mentioned, I don't have time and I won't have time because I will be working on that beach body yeah!